扮鬼扮馬 Acting

還有一段關於上星期培訓的事.

一向都知自己是個內向的人,但工作上要有發展的話一定要加強自己的交際能力,這是心理評估,上司,下屬,以致高層一至的結論.

那次培訓的二十多人裡我算是最低級的,而面對的很多也是素未謀面的人.之前已經花了些時間去計劃有誰我一定要找機會談話,因為對日後的工作重要,也預備了談話內容.聽起來很虛偽,但對一個內向的人來說,要主動跟陌生人談話這是必要的.

過了兩天的培訓,對自己的表現都很滿意,也得到別人一些正面的回應.可是問題跟著來了.培訓星期四完,星期五開始覺得身體十分不適.肚子不舒適,疲倦,頭痛.有點像感冒但又好像不是.整個週末只是想一個人過(內向的人要靠私人空間來灰復元氣的).

原來強迫自己去做不是自己性格的事會惹來那麼大的壓力!

There’s one more story related to last week’s training.

I’ve known myself to be an introvert for a long time. However, to advance in my career, I need to improve my socializing skills. I’ve got the same recommendation from psychometric analysis, boss, direct reports, and even superiors.

Among the 20 or so participants I was probably the lowest in the corporate ladder, and there were a lot of new faces to meet. Before the meeting I had already spent some time to plan who I needed to have a conversation with, because they’d have an impact on my career, as well as researched on some discussion topic. It sounds very fake, but to an introvert, this is an necessary demon if I want to take the initiative to talk to a stranger.

I thought I did pretty well during the two-day training, and I did get some positive feedbacks. However, it didn’t end there. The training ended on Thursday. On Friday I started to feel very sick – stomach problem, tired, headache. It felt like a flu but not a flu at the same time. The whole weekend I just wanted to be alone (Introverts need personal space to regain energy).

I never thought that forcing myself out of character would be so stressful!